Well done Lucy. I appreciate your mental well being needs to come first and so I’ll never try and force you to train on days you don’t feel up to it. Obviously without that awareness of what the issue is as well it’s not something I would look to get involved in. That said if you ever wanted to discuss, and by that I don’t mean past traumas, but what holds you back now, then perhaps there might be some words of wisdom I can offer to help. I’m just thinking out loud really. Just my way of saying I’m hear to help more if needed, but equally don’t want to step across any lines, given the nature of the situation. I find with my own anxiety, which is no way comparable to yours, that the actual reality is never anywhere near as bad as what I build up in my head.