The honest feedback is good. I think your muscles may take a few weeks to adapt to the new training, especially the gym exercises so stick with it and hopefully you’ll find that soreness will go away. I’m pretty sure no-one else thinks the same you do about your appearance but as someone who is pretty disgusted at times by my own appearance I do understand it. It’s ok to be negative at times, but then ask the questions what can I do to improve that state of mind? And you’re on the right path at the moment so just give yourself time. It helps me to try and put my issues into perspective and the one person I often think about is Jess Snape and her strong character with what she has had to deal with her own life. And in the grand scheme of things, whilst they can effect us mentally our issues are small compared to others. Really well done on the session though. Well under 5k pace and with practice you’ll get better at being more consistent within the reps.