ānot my day, but thatās OKā sums this one up, they canāt all be good, right? If they were then the really successful ones wouldnāt feel so good. I didn’t enjoy this race one bit!
I knew that beating my PB would be tough but I was hoping Iād be able to wing it somehow, at the very least another sub-90 would have been acceptable.
Didnāt feel great in the morning, sleep was a bit meh and my knee flared up on the walk down. During my warmup jog I had a heart palpitation and felt a bit sick⦠good start!
Might have set off a bit quick in fairness but reigned it in pretty quickly and kept it steady, but it was feeling tough early on. I was ahead until the 6th km (about halfway up Queensway) then it started feeling like really hard work and got slower and slower annoyingly, people coming past me ā I just didnāt have energy to push up the hill enough so was totally done in at the top, so no energy for a nice fast downhill section. I was slower all along the ridge, even the downhills where I tried to really pick the pace up, then that climb up to the cone was awful, I was so tired and slow at this point it was embarrassing!
Managed a bit of a push down Harold Rd but was still slower than October, felt good going a bit quick but I felt worn out. Heading onto the front was OK, the crowd cheered me up a bit and I didnāt slow, in fact I picked the pace up compared to Oct (no headwind) but wasnāt going to get a good time which was a bit demoralising, but I didnāt quit and kept pushing until the end which was quite strong, km 21 was a 4:02 and there was a decent sprint finish as some guy came rushing past and I wasnāt having that ā got into the 2s in the last 50m!
I had realised I had blown it by the top of Queensway, at halfway I was 1.5mins behind for a sub-90 so I knew that wasnāt achievable unless I pulled something amazing out of the bag.. but I left my bag at home so there wasnāt much to draw on. Glad I didnāt give up and still managed a strong finish, almost 2 mins slower than October. Iām not too sad about it all, itās probably the result I deserved based on the recent illness and break in training. Onto the next oneā¦
You know what really determines who we are as people. It’s not when things are going well and we can take all the plaudits. It’s how we respond when shit gets tough. It happens to us all. Most people crumble or just are not up for the fight. So the fact you dug deep and kept trying, even when you were struggling really highlights your character and I think this, probably more so than all those good races you have had, shows why you achieved what you’ve had. So whilst the race and day itself wasn’t much fun, you should be able to take as much pride and satisfaction from this effort, than any other run you’ve done. “You know what, he’s right, I didn’t give up, I am awesome, so that was a success”. Dust yourself down go again and just take this as a big mental win, despite the struggles. Well done Sam. Love the feedback as always “Left my bag at home”, I’ll be using that at some stage.